that is thing with working at the most magical place on earth: NEARLY EVERYONE YOU MEET LEAVES. of the 60,000 employees that are here, i would say well over half are either seasonal and plan on working completely different seasons then you or cp's and will not come back after their program is over. pieces of my heart are spread all over the globe now. china, japan, barbados, new york, new jersey, california, even other parts of florida. but so few are right here. it is no fun to go to the parks alone. it is no fun to sit at the apartment and do nothing, and i cant afford to drive around and explore....ahhhhh adulthood in your 20's.... fabulous.
i have done a lot of thinking and i know i have told some of you that i was apartment hunting. but with that thinking i have also done some praying. i have racked my brain and lied awake at night until my eyes swelled up with tears trying to figure out what to do and i have come to a realization. it isnt fun anymore.
now, i have not had time to meet new people so maybe that will change...so many of the people that made it awesome were cp's. so many of the people that helped me make all my wonderful memories have gone on with their lives and i am just left folding laundry. i still love the perks of my job. i love knowing when and where the rare characters are going to be, i love getting into the parks, i LOVE interacting with other members of the disney entertainment team and seeing the newbies light up the first time they get to hang out with their new furry best friend. but the job itself isnt worth the stress that i have. i dont like struggling pay check to paycheck and in otown, unless you are wearing a suit, that is all you do. honestly, if it werent for those perks, my awesome roommates, and a few others are work i probably would have already headed back home.
i dont want to be a quitter though. i want to hold out. see if maybe this is just some weird mood i have been in. the traffic and the crowds just make me miss the mountains so much more. plus, on top of everything i have to get back to school and get my gpa up so i can start on the path that is calling my heart towards it. what does all this mean? it means that i will be coming home in August like i had originally planned. i will be going to walmart, if only temporarily. and i will be starting back at school fall semester as well. i am hoping to stay seasonal, but i am not sure if school will allow that. i will know more in the spring. if not, i will spend saving up money so i can come visit this home away from home as often as possible. Walt Disney World is home away from home. i love love love love love going to the parks. taking way too many pictures. seeing that castle light up night. i love the childhood that is reborn every time i see that giant sign <3
annnnnyway. enough of that here is a very brief recap of what has been going on since my last post:
-went to blizzard beach...went down a slide that is 180 feet. yes. ONE HUNDRED EIGHTY FEET UP!!! 90 DEGREE DROP. it is so terrifying and so fun at the same time. :) I got to spend that whole day with my roommate allie...it was so nice to be able to hang out not at work or in the process of getting ready for work.
- i went to hollywood studios to do a day of star wars character hunting as it is star wars weekends currently. i plan on going again on friday to get the rest of the characters that i did not have the opportunity to meet 2 weeks ago. it was a blast even though at the time i hadnt seen any of the star wars movies so i didnt know who most of the characters were lol. i knew the main ones: chewy, leia (sp?), ewoks, darth maul, so on and so forth. i cant wait to meet darth maul!
- and i have worked. i have only had 3 days off since my first week here. i have had to pick up every single day that is available to make sure that bills can be paid. it has been exhausting and i am going to try and give myself more play/relaxation time
miss you all and cant wait to smell that mountain air and drive with people who still use the "thank you wave"... :)
(sorry for any and all typos, i am waaaaay too tired to do any proofing before posting tonight)
